oy.
haha, that's how i'd like to describe my feelings for the things that have happened since my last post.
my grandmother, who i swear has been in the hospital like 6 times already this year, is in the hospital once again, so please pray for her speedy recovery and that they FINALLY are able to figure out what is actually wrong with her. i hate seeing my grandma going through this, and that i can't be there for her as much as i'd like to be. which breaks my heart and makes me feel like a horrible daughter/granddaughter (since she raised me, she's more of a mom)
i found out that my dad, who i just saw like a month or so ago for the first time in over 13 years, is having a court date soon- which i have mixed feelings about. if you knew the story, you'd understand but that is entirely another post in itself. haha. basically, he got his time cut- instead of getting out in 3.5 years, he gets out in 1.5 years. which, considering that he's dying is a good thing, because it means that i (and my family) will get more time with him, and we may be able to get him the help that he needs so that we can get his liver and whatever other issues, i just- idk. so many emotions rolled into one when anything involving my dad is brought up.
today- was just overWhelming in general. i had so much to do. i had to go to kroger, to meet abi's paternal grandmother and pick up some money to take to the courthouse so that i actually am getting some sort of payment on child support, since idk, there's not been a payment since friggin november. which- he gives me some stupid lame excuse every single time, and blames it on the state and/or the counties incompetence as he says. just man up, pay the bill, or sign over your rights. you moved 3 hours away to help a relationship with your girlfriend, instead of doing the right thing and making a better relationship with your daughter. your girlfriend would have understood that if she loved you as much as you claim. ugh. don't even get me started- he URKS me to no end with his pathetic lies and wasting of my time.
then i took caydee to dance class, and she did great minus the few times she sat down to play peek a boo with me. hahaha. after caydee's dance class i went to visit my hubs at work in the yucky rain to take him a drink, and then we went back to dance class- but this time so miss. abi could dance. i sat in the car with caydee, like last week, and abi seems to do better that way- so that's nice to know. they both got their practice dvd's today- so i have a feeling this mommy will be learning lots of ballet/tap moves. haha. and abi got her costume today, so cute!
today marks the second week of my clinicals term, which means now i have to start participating in "clinical discussions" that are meant more to prepare me for the in office clinicals/externship coming up in about 5 weeks! i can't believe that in 3 weeks i find out where i'll be interning/externing. it's happened so fast, and i'm starting to really feel like a grown up! so scary!
i signed up for swagbucks and instant cash sweepstakes today to make any extra money that i can. you should look on my blog's page to find the widget's containing the info on those :)
now, i'm finally at home, the girls are in bed, the oven is preheating for pizza and cookies, the hubs is on his way home (thanks to my FIL for bring him home), and i can't wait to just relax.
today has been a busy, overwhelming day, but it's almost over, and that means one day closer to the weekend. <3
happy wednesday blogger friends.
how was YOUR wednesday???
